i have to say, for once i'm envious of those people. because today my grandfather passed away. he was a strange man but i loved him anyway. he had been sick for some time, wasting away, really. i haven't spoken to my father yet (it was his dad) but i can only imagine the heartache in his eyes right now. i'm sitting here waiting for him to come home, so i can make him some soup and watch the olympics together. heaven knows i'm worried about him.
anyways, the reason why i have this blog is because i was reading that Julie and Julia book, by Julie Powell, and she had a blog. i have always wanted a place to say whatever i'm feeling, whatever is on my mind, and broadcast it to the whole world because i am a narcissist. i thought perhaps youtube would offer me this but soon after creating an account on which to actually upload videos, i realized that i would have to look nice all the damn time with a youtube account. let me say this: i am no movie star. i often prefer to loaf around in leggings and thick sweaters, even though i live in california. i am in denial. i hate sunny weather, it doesn't agree with my skin and my dreams of living in the lush, verdant english countryside. i suppose i'm just not girlie enough for youtube.
anyways, so i thought why not make a blog? i like to write and i feel it is good practice for me, because although it's not dissimilar to a journal entry, i'm talking to someone else (i hope), not me. to be honest, if even one person reads this, i'll be thrilled. it felt like a somber sort of day, and it is good to do something productive on somber days, you know. it makes you feel a little less trapped. even if it's something like doing the dishes. i can't even tell you how soothing it is after something bad happens to wash plates and cups with scalding hot water and lemony soap, the steam blossoming around your head.
the other reason why i am having a blog is because, honestly, so many people use the internet to say vapid things. this is not going to be a blog about vapid things. i am an aficionado of literature, film, music, and art. am going to write about these things, and life, and the observations i have about these things.
some other stuff you should know.
1. i am sixteen years of age.
2. i have a bit of an interest in makeup, so i may make an aside about it here or there, if i find a product i really like or something. to me makeup is artistry with a face as a canvas. i find it fascinating.
3. i like poetry. i am one of about three people on the planet, it seems, who likes poetry. i am particularly fond of byron, keats, and this one poet by the name of max erhmann.
4. oooh! and guess what? i like philosophy too.
5. i am obsessed with music. this is why my blog has the name it does. my other obsessions: marilyn monroe, coldplay, bob dylan, U2, david bowie, oasis, old movies, jimi hendrix, princess diana, and lots of other things i can't think of.
6. i am an animal lover and i have three cats and one dog.
today is valentine's day. today my valentine is grief. i hope you fare better than me.
i'll be back soon with a more upbeat post.
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